“I know God has a plan, but…,”
Usually we leave the sentence unfinished, because we know we shouldn’t say the thing we really want to say:
Why? Why did this happen?
We really want to know, but there’s also a bit of accusation in the question. We don’t just want God to answer us. We want him to answer to us.
“Explain yourself, God. Lay out your reasons as to why you did what you did. What do you have to say for yourself?”
“That’s not what I meant to say,” we protest. But it is.
Don’t worry. No one ever got punished for asking why. We’ve all been there. And we’ve all encountered the frustrating silence that comes in response to the question. As much as he loves us, understands us, and wants to help us, God won’t explain himself to us.
But he cares.
I sometimes think of the Holy Spirit as a gentle mother holding a tired, overextended, very unhappy child. Her arms wrap around him and she covers him with kisses and whispers that things will be better in the morning.
God rarely says what he is going to do. He simply shows us as he’s doing it. And when we are confused and sad, he whispers, “It will be okay.”
And it will.